Dally is Gone, and I Am Sick In Bed, Great!!!

Dear Diary: It's Ponyboy again. I left the hospital after Dally and I was confused. Why did Johnny, Johnny have to die! I kept sayin he aint dead, he aint dead! I actually thought that he wasnt dead so I was walking round town mad and throwing things when a guy came up in a car a few hours later and I got a ride with him it turns out my head was bleeding. i didn't care though. It didnt hurt! Anyway he took me home and when I walked inside everbody stopped and stared and I couldn't think staright I told them about Johnny and they told me to sit down but I didnt because I didnt want them to think I was hurt or sick! Then the phone rang and thats the thing that changed many, many lives, and ended one too! Well Darry picked up the phone his expression turned to ice. I could see his devastation. It was Dally at a booth and we ran to the vacant lot we hang at. We saw him run into the streetlight and he pulled out his heater (a gun) and he was only bluffing but the cops didnt know that! The cops shot him in his chest and he feel back in the impact. He was dead! Him and Johnny are both gone. He is so stupid! But that is what he wanted! We all knew he would die gallant! Steve almost fell crying if not for Sodapop catching him. I suddenly dropped! I woke up but Soda made me go to sleep. I actually did. I woke up again and I saw Darry sitting in the armchair. He woke up. He said that I had exhaustion, shock, and I had a minor concussion. I finally remembered everything andit came at me with waves. I had been asleep for 3 days. I was in the hospital. I called for people. Especially Soda. I hadnt ate anything cus it all reminded me of bologna. Soda had came in and he was so excited he was like a little kid. Darry went to get me mushroom soup and Soda climbed in bed with me and we both fell asleep before Darry came back in. After that I had to stay in bed for a week! I hated it! I read and drew pictures most. All my friends came over but then Randy came over! I lit a smoke hoping my bros wouldnt come in! I told him about my parents and we talked about court. Then  he mentionecd Johnny and I knew a Johnny isnt DEAD! He kept saying it and I freaked!!! Then Darry made him leave. And he told me to clean up but I couldn't and Soda wouldn't but when I said that he glared and I said maybe Soda would clean. He said "Maybe you can be a lttle neater,huh, little buddy." I couldn't believe he said "little buddy" only Soda ever said that!

Your Pal,

Forever and Always,

Johnny

Ponyboy!