When Life Becomes A Game Of Chance!

Dear Mind Diary: Once Dally said "Cherry" I gagged. She was the reason I am in this mess. Me and Ponyboy said at the exact same time "Cherry? The soc?" He said "Yeah" and told us why she is the spy, bout how they were at the vacant lot and she showed up in her lil ol' Sting-Ray, it made me think back about the soc lying in the blood and it was m m m my fault... I heard in the back of my mind a deep voice sayin "Next time you want to pick up a broad, pick up your own kind"  I knew Pony had that same voice that creepy spine-chillin voice. He told us more but it was all a blur because I kept thinkin it couldnt be Cherry. Cherry is nice and sweet, but not, I repeat NOT a SPY I snapped out of it when Dally said " I aint never bin in the country before. Have you two?" I just thought back to when I was little sittin by the fire with my parents loved me and I thought to myself 'No that wasnt the country it was the city' but man I mean those days the days of love, and laughter. Snap out of it Johnny! So i shook my head no, but Pony said this long story. I was eating my fifth bbq sandwich and I was thinkin to myself I have to turn myself in. Me, Dally and especially Pony, cant live out here forever we WILL Die. I knew at that moment I was goin back. I told Dally and Pony my story of why when I ended. I said " I dont guess..." I swallowed and said "I dont guess my parents are worried about me or anything?" But Dally was talkin' to me bout somethin but the rest doesn't matter. This is where things get interesting! The Church was on fire! I didn't know what to do but Pony reacted and left the car and I couldn't let him go by himself I was goin with him... Every step of the way! Out of nowhere this lady comes up and heres the words that changed my life forever... "Jerry, some of the kids are missing." Those words they sounded so harmless but not even she could have taken them back. The next words were not important... all you need to know is that there was a kid in there and Pony was on his way to rescuing him and I went too! He smashed a glass window and hopped in and I followed and I said "Hey Ponyboy" He turned and looked at me. We both took deep breathes and I could barely see, the smoke was clouding my eyes. Pony asked if the guy was coming, I said no he was to fat. I couldnt laugh though or the smoke would collapse my lungs. Anyway we got to the kids there were 8 hiding scared in a corner. We got em all out safely but the roof was bout to collapse. So I shoved Pony out. I was about to leave but a piece of somethin landed on my back. I didnt have time to see what it was before the smoke got to me and I passed out! In the ambulance Dally was beside me. He ran in to get me after I blacked out. I hope he's okay... Wait wheres Ponyboy. Wake me up. Get me outta here! I gotta find Pony! I need to see him! He's so young! He can't die! NO I CAN'T DIE!!!!! WAKE UP! I make it to the hospital I am still passed out but I can hear and see everything like I am awake! They rush me into surgery, there are doctors all around They are fixing my burns and my back. I hear them say "His back is broken. He has 3rd degree burns!" I don't feel it though its like its somebody else lying on that table and I am just there watching.  I am alright! Really I am okay! PONY!! Pony is he okay? Is he is surgery too? Is he dead? No he can't be he got out! He must be alright, but what if hes not! JOHNNY!! I screamed in my head. Shut Up and come down! Pony is okay you need to worry about yourself!THis is your life that has become a game of chance! Get ahold of yourself! So I just stop screaming at myself and calmed down my racing mind and listen to the monitor tell me my heart beat. BEEP... BEEP... BEEEEEEEEEP! No this isn't happening I am not dead! I feel A shock go through my body and my chest leap of the table and I am back! Well now that that is over with! I tell myself to fall asleep and that is exactly what I do!

Your mind,

body,

Johnny!